Carol Tiggs was the only person very close to Carlos Castaneda who did not disappear after he died on April 27, 1998, and consequently she became the leader of Castaneda's followers.
And
regarding what happened to Castaneda and his warriors, Carol gave two
different versions: one to the staff of Cleargreen, which is the company
that Castaneda founded to market his teachings; and Carol gave a very
different explanation to her friend Amy Wallace.
WHAT CAROL TOLD THE CLEARGREEN STAFF
After
Castaneda's death, Carol preferred not to reveal Castaneda's passing
and the disappearance of her companions to the public, but she did have
to tell the Cleargreen staff something because they lived with
Castaneda's women almost every day.
And
what she told them was that Castaneda “had burned inside” and that the
women who had left had done so in pairs at the Westwood compound.
Carol stated that Castaneda and Nury left together, then Florinda and Taisha, and then Kylie and Talia.
Cleargreen
members were given tours of the complex, shown where the departures
supposedly took place in specific rooms, and some were even told that
Taisha carried all her magical jewelry with her to "charge" them, before
leaving individual items with the women in the group.
Cid's observations
The Westwood compound was the residence where Castaneda lived with several of his witches.
Nury
was Castaneda's adopted daughter, Florinda and Taisha were his personal
disciples, Kylie was the leader of the Tensegrity instructors, and
Talia was the president of Cleargreen.
All of them, along with Carol who was 'the nagual woman', were Castaneda's closest women.
And
in Castaneda's teachings it is mentioned that the shamanic warriors who
are flawless do not die but burn through inner fire and enter into
infinity.
Carol confides in Amy
In
the weeks following Castaneda's death (between May and June 1998) Carol
confided the truth to Amy Wallace, whose house in Westwood she visited
almost daily to relax by the pool and get away from the Cleargreen
members, who sought her guidance as their only remaining leader.
Carol told Amy that Florinda, Taisha, Kylie, and Talia had committed suicide.
And
she also told him a gruesome story about Nury, who had called her on
the phone from a motel in Death Valley, after a failed suicide attempt.
Carol
told Amy that when Nury left for the desert, she left her apartment a
complete mess, which she, Tracy Kramer, and Brandon Scott had to clean
up. Then, they divided up her most valuable belongings and distributed
them among the group members.
After
allegedly receiving a call from Nury, Carol claimed she drove to Nury's
location with a large sum of money to give her, only to find her
"covered in blood." She told Amy that Nury clung pathetically to her
leg, repeatedly saying she was "useless and a total failure."
Carol stated that she told Nury to go to Ireland and set up a printing business.
Carol
also made many revealing statements to Amy that indicated her feelings
toward the other members of the group. Shortly after Castaneda's death,
she told Amy, "I don't like what's gone, and I don't like what's left!"
And
on another occasion Carol told Amy that she didn't leave with the other
women because "she no longer wanted to be under their command."
As
the weeks went by, Carol complained about the Cleargreeners: "They're
all chasing me! He left and they want to squeeze every last drop out of
me. Why can't they take care of themselves? I feel like all these idiots
are puppies sucking on my tits!"
And
she also confessed: "My heart is broken, completely broken. Carlos
broke it, and I don't know if I'll ever get over it. I'm sure I'm going
to need a lot of therapy!"
Furthermore,
Carol stated that Amy "had everything in life while she herself had
nothing." At one point, after a relaxing swim in the pool, she
exclaimed, "Now I have all the power! I have it! I'm the only one who
knows what really happened, and everyone loves me for it!"
Finally, Carol described to Amy her last conversation with Florinda:
"Florinda
was getting ready to leave. She didn't show any affection towards me,
not even an 'I love you,' nothing. It was very cruel. Suddenly, at the
door, she turns to me and says:"
"Muni [the last name Carol had taken], were you ever jealous of the nagual and his women?"
I
replied, "No, Florinda, I didn't have any. I had other problems with
him, believe me, but that wasn't one of them... I'm not jealous. I mean,
listen, after all, I was the number two pimp."
Then Florinda smiled and said, "Well... he had many women, you know?"
And I thought to myself, "Now he wants to go to confession?"
She added, "I was just curious," and turned and left. Not a hug, not a kiss, not a thank you, not a goodbye, nothing .
Cid's observations
In
front of the other members of Cleargreen, Carol continued with this charade that Castaneda and his women had managed to transform themselves
into beings of light and achieved immortality (something similar to
what Buddhists say when a lama transforms his body into the 'rainbow
body' and enters Nirvana).
But
in front of Amy, Carol confessed that Castaneda had died from liver
cancer and that the other women had decided to commit suicide.
Amy
Wallace was friends with all of them, and later revealed these
confessions that Carol made to her, and the experiences she had with
Castaneda and his group, in a book she wrote entitled "The Sorcerer's Apprentice".
Most
likely, those confessions were true, with the exception of the last
encounter that Carol claimed to have had with Nury, which sounds like a
lie invented by Carol because it is difficult to imagine her driving for
hours to Death Valley to bring money to Nury (who also wanted to commit
suicide) and even more so knowing that Carol felt a lot of antipathy
towards Nury who for a long time had taken Carol's place as Castaneda's
favorite.
And as detailed in Amy's book, Carol suffered many years of humiliation and abuse because of Nury.
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