Blavatsky
died on May 9, 1891, and in tribute William Judge, who had been his main
collaborator, wrote this article which was published the following month in Lucifer
magazine.
“Yours till Death and after, H.P.B.”
Such has been the manner in which our beloved teacher and friend always
concluded her letters to me. And now, though we are all of us committing to
paper some account of that departed friend and teacher, I feel ever near and
ever potent the magic of that resistless power, as of a mighty rushing river,
which those who wholly trusted her always came to understand. Fortunate indeed
is that Karma which, for all the years since I first met her, in 1875, has kept
me faithful to the friend who, masquerading under the outer mortal garment
known as H.P. Blavatsky, was ever faithful to me, ever kind, ever the teacher
and the guide.
In 1875, in the City of New York, I first met H.P.B. in this life. By
her request, sent through Colonel H.S. Olcott, the call was made in her rooms
in Irving Place, when then, as afterwards, through the remainder of her stormy
career, she was surrounded by the anxious, the intellectual, the Bohemian, the
rich and the poor.
It was her eye that attracted me, the eye of one whom I must have known
in lives long passed away. She looked at me in recognition at that first hour,
and never since has that look changed. Not as a questioner of philosophies did
I come before her, not as one groping in the dark for lights that schools and
fanciful theories had obscured, but as one who, wandering many periods through
the corridors of life, was seeking the friends who could show where the designs
for the work had been hidden. And true to the call she responded, revealing the
plans once again, and speaking no words to explain, simply pointed them out and
went on with the task. It was as if but the evening before we had parted,
leaving yet to be done some detail of a task taken up with one common end; it
was teacher and pupil, elder brother and younger, both bent on the one single
end, but she with the power and the knowledge that belong but to lions and
sages. So, friends from the first, I felt safe.
Others I know have looked with suspicion on an appearance they could not
fathom, and though it is true they adduce many proofs which, hugged to the breast,
would damn sages and gods, yet it is only through blindness they failed to see
the lion’s glance, the diamond heart of H.P.B.
The entire space of this whole magazine would not suffice to enable me
to record the phenomena she performed for me through all these years, nor would
I wish to put them down. As she so often said, they prove nothing but only lead
some souls to doubt and others to despair.
And again, I do not think they were done just for me, but only that in those
early days she was laying down the lines of force all over the land and I, so
fortunate, was at the center of the energy and saw the play of forces in
visible phenomena. The explanation has been offered by some too anxious friends
that the earlier phenomena were mistakes in judgment, attempted to be rectified
in later years by confining their area and limiting their number, but until
someone shall produce in the writing of H.P.B. her concurrence with that view,
I shall hold to her own explanation made in advance and never changed. That I
have given above. For many it is easier to take refuge behind a charge of bad
judgment than to understand the strange and powerful laws which control in
matters such as these.
Amid all the turmoil of her life, above the din produced by those who
charged her with deceit and fraud and others who defended, while month after
month, and year after year, witnessed men and women entering the Theosophical
Movement only to leave it soon with malignant phrases for H.P.B., there stands
a fact we all might imitate — devotion absolute to her Master. “It was He,” she
writes, “who told me to devote myself to this, and I will never disobey and never
turn back.”
In 1888 she wrote to me privately:
« Well, my only friend, you ought to know better. Look into my life and try
to realize it — in its outer course at least, as the rest is hidden. I am under
the curse of ever writing, as the wandering Jew was under that of being ever on
the move, never stopping one moment to rest. Three ordinary healthy persons
could hardly do what I have to do. I live an artificial life; I am an automaton
running full steam until the power of generating steam stops, and then —
good-bye!
. . .
Night before last I was shown a bird’s-eye view of the Theosophical
Societies. I saw a few earnest reliable Theosophists in a death struggle with
the world in general, with other —nominal but ambitious— Theosophists. The
former are greater in numbers than you may think, and they prevailed, as you in
America will prevail, if you only remain staunch to the Master’s programme and
true to yourselves.
And last night I saw ∴ and now I feel
strong —such as I am in my body— and ready to fight for Theosophy and the few true
ones to my last breath. The defending forces have to be judiciously —so scanty
they are— distributed over the globe, wherever Theosophy is struggling against
the powers of darkness. »
Such she ever was; devoted to Theosophy and the Society organized to
carry out a program embracing the world in its scope. Willing in the service of
the cause to offer up hope, money, reputation, life itself, provided the
Society might be saved from every hurt, whether small or great. And thus bound
body, heart and soul to this entity called the Theosophical Society, bound to
protect it at all hazards, in face of every loss, she often incurred the
resentment of many who became her friends but would not always care for the
infant organization as she had sworn to do. And when they acted as if opposed
to the Society, her instant opposition seemed to them to nullify professions of
friend ship. Thus she had but few friends, for it required a keen insight,
untinged with personal feeling, to see even a small part of the real H.P.
Blavatsky.
But was her object merely to form a Society whose strength should lie in
numbers?
Not so.
She worked under directors who, operating from behind the scene, knew
that the Theosophical Society was, and was to be, the nucleus from which help
might spread to all the people of the day, without thanks and without acknowledgement.
Once, in London, I asked her what was the chance of drawing the people into the
Society in view of the enormous disproportion between the number of members and
the millions of Europe and America who neither knew of nor cared for it.
Leaning back in her chair, in which she was sitting before her writing desk,
she said:
« When you consider and remember those days in 1875 and after, in which
you could not find any people interested in your thoughts, and now look at the
wide-spreading influence of theosophical ideas —however labeled— it is not so
bad. We are not working merely that people may call themselves Theosophists,
but that the doctrines we cherish may affect and leaven the whole mind of this
century.
This alone can be accomplished by a small earnest band of workers, who work
for no human reward, no earthly recognition, but who, supported and sustained
by a belief in that Universal Brotherhood of which our Masters are a part, work
steadily, faithfully, in understanding and putting forth for consideration the
doctrines of life and duty that have come down to us from immemorial time.
Falter not so long as a few devoted ones will work to keep the nucleus
existing.
You were not directed to found and realize a Universal Brotherhood, but
to form the nucleus for one; for it is only when the nucleus is formed that the
accumulations can begin that will end in future years, however far, in the
formation of that body which we have in view. »
H.P.B. had a lion heart, and on the work traced out for her she had the
lion’s grasp; let us, her friends, companions, and disciples, sustain ourselves
in carrying out the designs laid down on the trestle-board, by the memory of
her devotion and the consciousness that behind her task there stood, and still
remain, those Elder Brothers who, above the clatter and the din of our battle,
ever see the end and direct the forces distributed in array for the salvation
of “that great orphan — Humanity.”
William Q. Judge, F.T.S.
(Lucifer, Vol. VIII, June 1891, p.290-2; Echoes II, p.16-21)
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