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PSYCHOLOGICAL DISORDERS GENERATED BY "I AM" MOUVEMENT


The following article was written by alumni of the organization I AM Activity which was founded by Guy and Edna Ballard.
 
 
This section reveals some of the psychological trauma imposed on I AM students by the Ballards and their perfect teachings. It also reveals overwhelming evidence that decrees don't work in the emphatic way taught by the Ballards. And sadly, confirms there is no other conclusion to draw other than the wealthier the Ballards became off book sales and "love gifts", the more they believed their own bull.
 
 
 
Disease, disease, disease
 
Edna used to get very sore legs, and needed to have a good sit down and put her legs up to ease the pain. So much for the body of Light.
 
One of the most devoted students of the movement until the 1980s, a man of high character and much love, had a dense stroke (CVA) in his 50s, and ended up stuck in a nursing home, unable to walk or talk.
 
A dedicated and sincere student, with 60 years of decrees behind him, could not stop a deer tick from making him seriously ill and cutting short his life.
 
I AM students do not outpicture the Ballard promises of health and youth. Rather, they just get old and die like the Ballards and everyone else. And we are putting $10,000 up to back our words.
 
 
 
Racism of Activity I AM
 
It was a rule, though disguised and guarded, that Blacks were not allowed into I AM sanctuaries. This rule got changed sometime in the 1980s when a white man became a student, and his black wife was rejected when she tried to come. To avoid a major scandal in the press and courts, The St Germain Foundation had to do some quick policy changes.
 
They were also motivated monetarily, as the Foundation would lose its religious organization tax exemption status if they didn't let in blacks. Proof the Saint Germain Foundation are prepared to compromise on 'God's teachings" for the big buck, which further supports the observation students don't have their hands on Ballard's limitless wealth.
 
Indeed, the whole racism thing is a sticky one for the Ascended Masters. They would allow very dark skinned subcontinent Indians in, as well as all Asians, Central and South Americans, and Pacific Islanders; but not African Americans, even if they had a lighter skin color. Ascended Master policy regarding half casts or African albinos was in the too hard basket.
 
 
 
Teachings lead to psychiatric illness
 
We know of two dedicated students from the early 1980s who suicided after becoming disturbed about failed decrees.
 
A female student, after taking the Masters at their word that I AM music could raise a person within days into the Ascension, decided to play her piano non stop until she did Ascend. A few days later, her poor husband had to watch broken heartedly as she became psychotic from sleep deprivation, and needed placement in an asylum.
 
A husband of a student had to put up with her walking around with violet tinted glasses, saying he looked better in the violet flame. The poor man was driven so disturbed, he grabbed a hand gun and confronted the local I AM leader with the full intent of shooting him dead. Just as he put the gun to the leader's head, he reflected momentarily and said, "nah, I'm not going to kill you; trash like you aren't worth going to jail for."
 
In 1979 in Melbourne, Australia, in a case that made national headlines, an I AM student constructed a 12 foot high silver painted concrete fence around his home to keep the sinister "outer world" from harming his family. He also stopped sending his children to school and eventually stopped them from leaving the home. Eventually, the eldest of the children escaped with her siblings and went to the nearest police station. The media went into a feeding frenzy, and savaged the I AM Activity relentlessly in the press and on television for 2 weeks.
 
Many students were known to go and hang around on MT Shasta and the Grand Tetons waiting for the Ascended Masters to open the doors and let them in. Some of these students ended up in asylums, and one of them was known to be struck dead by a car on his way home when he realized the Masters didn't want to know him.
 
 
 
Troubles with sex
 
It would be fair to say that the rule of celibacy in the I AM Activity has been responsible for an alarming number of divorces and marriage difficulties. This is probably one of the areas of greatest damage by this movement. We are not saying that sexual restraint, even celibacy, are bad in themselves. But we are making the point that the Ballards were naive and mindless in using fear to motivate people to practice celibacy.
 
In most Eastern religions, celibacy is aspired to by monks, but ancient traditions there have a time proven graduated path to celibacy, and a novice is always under the training of a more experienced monk, who can compassionately guide the younger one.
 
None of this exists in the I AM Activity. One is expected to go cold turkey. Eastern traditions also believe it is foolish to attempt celibacy without some time within a monastery away from the constant temptation in normal life.
 
The Ballards once again displayed gross hypocrisy, by preaching celibacy after they had reached their 50s, and had a child. It is a lot easier at this age to practise.
 
It is interesting too that the Ballards recommended their students strive not to marry. Yet another example of do as I say, not as I do. Even Don, an accredited Messenger, couldn't follow this advice. As is to be expected, there are very few students who don't marry in the I AM. The financial and social benefits of marriage are hard to deny.
 
A sincere student of 10 years who devoted 5 years of his life working for peanuts for the I AM movement at Shasta Springs was seriously psychologically damaged after not getting results with his decrees and trying to stay obedient to the movement's "100% student" celibacy rules. Disillusioned and broken, he gradually became a deviant homosexual preying on the underprivileged from third world countries.
 
 
 
Car accidents galore
 
We personally know of at least three incidents where cars occupied by two students, driving straight home from I AM classes, were involved in car accidents. So it seems, even after giving all that service to life and the Masters, the Masters cannot hang around long enough to see their loved ones get safely home to bed. Furthermore, these crashes make a mockery of the Ballard saying "where two or more of you are gathered, there is a Master present".
 
A nice old couple with over 50 years of decrees behind them, were in a serious car crash caused by the husband. His wife was killed instantly, and the other driver was critically injured. The husband died the following day in hospital, admitting the accident was his mistake before he died. Contrast the harsh horrible reality of this with the flowery rhetoric and unlimited promises of the Masters as channeled through the Ballards.
 
 
 
You can rely on the masters?
 
A student of 9 years who gave decrees every day, when trying to get into his car outside his home, had a gun held to his head, was forced to the ground, and was robbed of his wallet, watch, and new SUV. All of this occurred while he was belting out decrees under his breath for the Masters to come and help him. Apparently, there is never a Master around when you really need one.
 
(Cid's observation: this incongruity is due to the fact that the Ballards falsely made their followers believe that the masters are protectors who will take care of them, when in reality the masters are only more evolved humans who work for humanity but cannot be attentive to each human.)
 
 
 
Psychological manipulation
 
Apparently the Ballards turned many of their early disciples into emotionally challenged basket cases, because many of them began mollycoddling Don Ballard, even into his twenties. Early I AM students say Don became such a pathetic milksop, his Mum and Dad put him in the defence forces to toughen him up.
 
This is all after the Ballards had decreed for years that war was evil and the USA should stay out of WWII. But mind you, Mama wanted her Don to be a handsome air force officer, not some schmuck grunt in the trenches. Unfortunately, F.D. Roosevelt, who hated Edna, must have talked to the right Generals and had Don put in the trenches where he apparently lost his nerve for the I AM Activity. Seems the Ascended Masters can protect an officer better than an army grunt, even if the grunt is one of their Beloved Messengers.
 

Enda Ballard and her son Don
 
 
You would think Ma and Pa Ballard would have known an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure; and stopped the mollycoddling before it started.
 
But I suppose this fits with the Ballards encouraging their followers to refer to them as Beloved Daddy and Mama Ballard.
 
 
Unfortunately, the Ballards said many things and made I AM laws, like the ones below, effecting young people in a way real caring Daddys and Mamas just plain wouldn't do.
 
It is a rule of the I AM Activity that people who have taken illicit drugs are not allowed into the Sanctuaries. Indeed, Edna said many things to a young man who had once experimented with drugs. Edna told him he could not make his ascension in this embodiment and would never have success. The poor young man had been so disturbed by this he felt he had nothing to live for, and was seriously considering suicide when last seen.
 
But different sanctuaries have relaxed their policy on this as new memberships have stagnated.
 
Young student X, after being in the I AM Activity for a year and never having made vows of celibacy, was banned from his religion by the Group Leader when the leader was informed by another student that Student X had dated a woman. There is nothing in the I AM books about dating being banned.
 
A student was so emotionally disturbed by some of the fear tactics used in the I AM, that he lost all the hair on his head and body at the age of 21. Twenty years later, he still has no hair.
 
It is a rule of the I AM Activity that students need to attend an I AM sanctuary at least once every three weeks or their radiation will decrease and they will be at the mercy of the sinister forces.
 
However, if a student doesn't attend classes for three weeks, there is another rule that students then cannot come back to the sanctuary until they go through the 7 week Fundamentals Classes again. Obviously, the students are supposed to fend off the sinister forces by themselves while waiting to get back into the next fundamentals class, which might not occur for 10 months.
 
One I AM sanctuary leader banned a student for life because he had three periods of not coming for three weeks in one year. Obviously some group leaders make up their own rules as they go, depending on whether they like a person.
 
It is hard to see a loving God in any of this.
 
And then pity the poor I AM student who lives in a town with no I AM Sanctuary!
 
 
 
 
(Source: www.tyob.info/public/archived_sites/users.on.net/%7Ethefirstbruce/Ballards/text.htm)
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

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